See ... she sees wizardry as ... as party tricks and talking to everything. But it's a promise. I made a promise to the universe that I will do what I can to ease pain and suffering, to prolong life wherever necessary, to give a quick and painless death when necessary and I live to fulfil that promise. I don't really want to die; I've done it before. But if that is the sacrifice I need to make for everyone else to live, then I will.

The thing is, Vanya would never understand that.